I haven’t mentioned it on the blog yet, but my father passed away two weeks ago while we were at the pediatric hospital with Mr. Smiles’ big surgery. My father has been living with us for the last 4 months. I am so grateful for that time with him. The loss was huge and the timing felt impossible to handle. But we are getting through it one day at a time. One step at a time. Sometimes it feels like one breath at a time.
We are productive people. We are always working around the home, homestead, community. We don’t do well sitting idle. But when you are grieving it is important to take time to stop and pull into yourself, like a turtle. Time to reflect and feel the feelings. My friend Val, over at Just Another Day on the Farm, reminded me of that this morning in a well worded post and it was perfect timing for me to need to hear it.
Autumn is our busiest time on the farm. But when I just continue to go, go, go I am just running from the pain. So I will purpose to take time “to turtle” as well.